What I want my summer to be like.

So this is my first blog of BEDA (Blog Every Day April). I really have a boring life so I am going to tell you about what I want to happen this summer.

My ambitions.
1. To have more time to spend volunteering.
-- I used to do it more than once a week and now I haven't done it in over a month. What with school, theater, and trying to figure things out in my life I just don't have the time or energy!

2. To catch up on my 50 book challenge thing.
--Again, with every that I have to do I have been slacking on my reading. I need to catch up on that. I am only on book 13.

3. To take a dance class.
--I haven't taken a professional dance class in a few years and I miss it. Being forced to learn new steps and express myself through my body is always helpful. I don't expect to go right back to where I was dance wise. I know how much work it took to get me there in the first place and I am ready to put some hard work into it again.

4. To do a summer show.
--I really don't care where I do a show. I just really want to do a musical again. I miss them.

5. To reconnect with some old friends.
--There are so many people that have come and gone from my life. I am determined to not let that happen again.

6. To go to Washington state again.
--Sara and I loved it there and we had so much fun. Not to mention we got to see Ahren-pants!

Here are some things I need to do before summer.

1. Get a job
-- My job from last year was taken. I was a Biology tutor.

2. Bring my grades up.
-- Remember when I freaked out if I wasn't going to make Dean's list? Well I can kiss Deans list goodbye this semester. :(

3. Learn my lines for the show.
-- I have to be off book in 2 weeks. *sigh*

4. Get back into making videos.
-- Sara and I have stopped...and we should get back to that.

Heaven and Hell.

So, I am a Christian. I am not so happy with organized religion, but that doesn't make me stop believing. Anywho, I was asked a question on a myspace survey. The question was, "Do you believe in the traditional definition of heaven and hell?" My first thought was, " What is the traditional definition?" I have been going to church ever since I can remember. I have heard many different interpretations of heaven and hell.

This one pretcher of mine a few years ago had told us one interpretation. That in heaven you won't remember what you did on earth or the people that you had once loved and cared about. They will mean nothing to you now. You will just love everyone and accept everyone that is in heaven.

I liked this idea at first. I try to love and accept everyone on earth. But after thinking about it more I started to hate it. What about the people that you left behind when you died?
The people on earth. And not to mention that people that you loved that didn't happen to go to heaven. Thinking about this made me very upset.

I reliezed that I would much rather remember everything that happened to me on earth after I die than just be content with not loving the people that I chose to love while I was alive. Even the thought of forgeting all the bad things that have happened to me does not make me feel content. I will gladly take the good with the bad. As long as I had those good memories.

In conclusion, this depiction of heaven made me be okay with going to hell.